I Just Don't Know

"I don't know." That's been my anthem for the past few weeks. I've been a planner for awhile now, but in college that part of my brain has really become overactive. I've always had my perfect life planned out. I'll spare the details, but know that my plan was ridiculously detailed. God saw all my elaborate plans I had in my head, and He's recently been teaching me that my plans aren't necessarily His. As easy as this is to say, it's a whole lot tougher to really learn. It's easy to just say "I know it'll all work out." I do know that, but let's be real. Learning isn't always without pain. I truly believe the Lord wants us to call out to Him in our anguish and pain. Psalm 120:1 says "I call on the Lord in my distress and he answers me." It's okay to be honest with the Lord and with others when things are tough and when you're frustrated or confused. Lately, as I said earlier, I've been wearing out the phrase "I don't know." What will my major be? I don't know. When will this trial pass? I don't know. What will my summer be like? I don't know. Where will I live when I graduate? I don't know. What will I be doing when I graduate? I don't know. When is everything going to be good again? I just don't know. But what I do know for a fact is that the Lord has a plan for me and for everyone else too. Someone told me recently that what we're seeing is like the threads of the bottom of a rug. We can only see the immediate. Meanwhile, God is seeing this beautiful tapestry from above. He sees where we are in a tangled mess, but He also sees the final product, and it is beautiful.

"The heart of a man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps."
Proverbs 16:9

Hopefully this is encouraging to some of you out there.